Do you understand me.....? I would take that as a “no”! As you already know I’m Christian Antonio Torres. A boy who does not know himself whether being bi, gay, or straight. Weird isn’t it, you maybe saying wow this guy is a total “fag” yeah I know that is a curse word but I say the truth not the lies/opinions. One thing is I don’t care what you say about me at all. I show my emotions to the public so they can see who I really am. Yeah I may have cut myself once or twice..... but that does not consider me to be like.. emo, or goth. It shows that you really want freakin’ attention from your friends and not your friends. That all they freakin’ say is “Why?”, “Don’t do that!”, and or even this “Nice!”. What is so freakin’ nice about doing that kind of stuff? Do you like pain?, Do you like attention?! I live through crap just because of my actions, I don’t have trust.... I don’t have freedom, I don’t have real friends! All that I have is problems, mistakes, and liars....”liars” that do drugs. That is not me.... I’m better, I’m stronger, and I’m smarter than them.
The only true friends I have to say are Liz, Bethany, Kiersten, and others “that are not stoners!” I’m not who you think I am! I’m a leader sometimes a follower and always a wanna-be, and stupid! I want my family to know that I do love them, that I do care about them! I give them disrespect and when they give me a gift I disrespect in return. I just wish I was not like that...... but it’s my fault and always will be. My dad is sick and he is in pain and all I do is give him stress..... that makes me feel like freakin’ crap. How can I live with myself being like that? I get accused of making faces.... I don’t do that.. or do I? Apparently I must since everyone says I do! If only I had a time machine I can go back in time and fix all the crap that happened to me that I did wrong! Now that I wrote on this crappy piece of paper (actually computer since being published), I need to fix everything and change my persona and life!...... and this is how I will! “So do you understand now?”
Things To Not Do To Mess Up My Life!!!!:
1.Don’t Give Attitude!
2. Stick Up 4 Myself!
3.Be Strong!
4.Fix All My Flaws!
5. Don’t Stress Dad Out!
6.Worry About School!
7.Find Out Who I Am!
8.Ditch Stoners Go To Honors!
9. Don’t Act Like A Freakin’ Pillsbury DoughGirl!
This is a new song that I wrote over Spring Break and I will be performing it for all of you and I hope you like it.... The topic is about a person and another person who are friends the first person feels different (love) but they do not know if the other person likes them like that. So the person tells them how they feel in song.
The day I first met you, I knew I fell in love. This is serious, don’t walk away, please----- don’t leave me. So long, farewell, so please don’t go-----. Got to give my heart a break, there’s only so much I can take, can take, can take, can take oh--,o,oh,o. Got to give my heart a break, my heart a break. There’s only so much I can take, so much I can take oh,oh,oh. Now were standing close by the window------. Somehow, somewhere, I know you will be there.
(Chorus:) Don’t want to lose my mind, because my life’s a simple rewind rewind rewind rewind- wind- wind o-------,o, o------,o.)
The day I first met you, I knew I fell in love. Don’t want to lose a breath, because of all this meth. Don’t want to lose you, Then I won’t know what to do------. Got to give my heart a break, there’s only so much I can take, can take, can take, can take oh------o, oh, o. Got to give my heart a break, my heart a break. There’s only so much I can take, so much I can take oh,oh,oh. When you stare into my eyes, there will be no more lies-------. Take it, or leave it, my love for you ain’t a secret.
(Chorus:) Don’t want to lose my mind, because my life’s a simple rewind, rewind, rewind, rewind-wind wind. o-----,o,o-------,o!)
The day I first met you, I knew I fell in love. (2x)
Oh------,o,o,Oh------,o,o! So hold my hand, come with me and step on this small land--------! Got to give my heart a break, there’s only so much I can take, can take, can take, can take oh---,o,oh,o. Got to give my heart a break, there’s only so much I can take, can take, can take, can take oh-----,o,oh,o. Got to give my heart a break, my heart a break. There’s only so much I can take, so much I can take oh,oh,oh,oh. The way we joke around, my love for you will be shown on the ground-------. With your hands wrapped around my finger tips, and how you kiss me on my lips...... say hey, hey, hey, hey--------------------, o,woah,o,woah,o woah,o,woah,o,woah,o,woah,o,woah,o,woah!
(Chorus:) Don’t want to lose my mind, because my life’s a simple rewind, rewind, rewind, rewind-wind-wind o------,o,o--------,o.)
The day I first met you, you told me not to fall in love!.............
*Life Iz A Jurney* ;D
